[thrash]I don't need appologies, I won't fall for sympathy! YOU CAN'T WIN ME BACK! This will be the last time, I'm kissing you Goodbye. You left me with a scar across my back!
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Name: Chelsea
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Rockford
Birthday: 7/25/1990
Gender: Female


Interests: First and foremost.....Jesus Christ. I wouldn't have gotten this far in life if it wasn't for Him. Thanks, Lord. I also love music, CONCERTS, writing songs and books, computers, art, science, designing, reading, and mechanics...I couldn't live without a computer or I wouldn't have the friends that I have today......
Expertise: I rock at drama, art, and contacting tons of different bands.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Other


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Member Since: 4/24/2005

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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

yeah yeah, so the Alabama moving threat is back

at first i was totally against it...

but now, i look at myself, and i'm starting to be alright...

it'll be when i graduate, so what will i do with my life? COLLEGE...

i need to go to a decent college, preferably an art college that offers my graphic arts field. if we move to alabama, i'll be closer to those colleges.

Here's the two decisions that my family are thinking about...

1) If I attend college here in Illinois, I'll need to find someone to live with. Then in the summer and during holidays like Thanksgiving and Christmas and spring break and stuff like that I go down to Alabama to stay with my family.

2) If I attend college in Alabama, I'll live up here in the summer with someone or rent an apartment.

either way, I don't want to leave my amazing friends behind...=/ it's so hard to think that I might have to leave all these great friends and local photography opportunities behind.

anyways, i have about a whole year to think about it...so there's no rush, really...

whatever God wants...God will have...


Thursday, March 08, 2007

size 11, baby!!!

I'm so happy, I got my first new pair of pants in MONTHS last night. and it's a size 11! hehe, no more 14s! I feel so happy...

i'm mad though cuz i haven't gotten to work out this entire week...stupid play practice...

o well, when i get my license, i'm gonna try to go every day...

guess what...

 

almost 52 more school days left!!!


Tuesday, February 20, 2007

THE DREAM that makes no sense...

=/

I'm standing upon a hill top in a vast prarie of green grass. Everyone below me is with another, linked and holding hands with the other...the sun is shining all around them, and on my little hilltop it is raining.

I laugh because I know it's just a dream of mine and I'll wake up soon. It's not real. Nothing is real.

Yet, I look in the field once again. Everyone I have ever loved is down there. My family, my friends...everyone was holding the hand of another. I start to walk from my hill top, but as I get down to the bottom, everyone stares as if I had something wrong with me. I looked in the water and I see a large hole in the middle of my chest. "My heart!" I scream, "Someone's taken it!" Not only that, I have a pair of tattered white wings on my back, muddied and bloodstained. I sheepishly cover my hole with my wings and i look around me. "Please help me..." i mutter...I feel a huge pain growing inside me and my limbs start to give way. "Without a heart, I can't live that long..."

My parents start to cry. My friends look around and mutter, "Wish I could help...wish I could help..." and stay linked with the other and just stand...looking around in the sky as if it would fall from the heavens at any second.

My legs stop working. I start to crawl on the grass, creating a red trail behind me. Everyone steps aside and lets me pass, not saying a word as they stare at the sky. I crawl back to my hilltop and sit in the rain once again, feeling the pain leave and my legs useful again. It's as if the rain was keeping me alive...acting as a heart for me. The blood washed from my body, making me clean once again.

I see a stone with writing beside me. It reads "Alone and Meant to Be..."

Confused, I throw the stone away, but it flies back as if magnitized to my hands. I try several times to throw it away, and I tried to put my hands behind my back. The stone flew right into my chest...closing the hole.

I screamed. I ran as fast as I could down the hill trying to use my wings to fly away, but I felt them break off and fall into the grass behind me.

Everyone stops and stares at me. Then with a smile, one of my friends [will not mention his name] steps forward and extends his hand, "You're one of the few that takes care in what they think..." I step away, "You don't want me, my heart isn't anything anymore...you barely even know me..." He walked up and took my hand from behind my back and said, "Alone and Meant to Be...it's nothing to me..." and I blacked out.

SERIOUSLY weirdest dream ever...=/ i dunno...


Wednesday, February 14, 2007

stuuuuuuuuupid valentines day

=/

i say SCREW IT ALL


Tuesday, February 13, 2007

YAY i can see a muscle when i flex my arms, haha, that's like never happened...

Weight: 163

my diet hasn't changed too much. i just cut back alot of snack food and i cut pizza out. i only eat that like once a month. i don't eat candy every friday like i used to. i've been eating more and more salads. the last time i ate fast food was the third week of December when dad and I went to Beef-a-Roo =D

my next goal is to eat a salad every day for lunch at school and to cut out french fries. yes, french fries. even if they're just oven baked, i don't want to eat them. on saturday, i had a gyro and fries and my stomach felt SOOOO sick...i got food poisoning...

so yeah, goal for the month:

drop at least 5 more pounds
cut out french fries
only have candy once this month
eat a salad every day for lunch
go to the fitness center 3 times a week starting in the middle of the month



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